each morning/afternoon i awake i find little to no joy in anything.
throughout the day i question the point of doing anything.
maybe a constant steady work flow would be a prescription.
possibly if i had something to do each moment of every day it may fill that void.
faint chances of happiness gleam in my eyes as i pass by mirrors.
i could stop and stare but that familiar look just comes back, does not compute.
i tried jogging once, but that just makes me want to kill myself.
and if i'm already depressed clinically, i assumed i should find another hobby.
i'd go to museums, but that causes more depression.
this is what art has become? lousy.
why isn't my work up there? it's lousy.
i couldn't make it up there anyway? lousy.
girlfriend? friend? dog? maybe a fish? all expendable.
maybe i'll study some foreign language so the voices in my head have some ethnic diversity.
if it was up to them, they would leave me. hell i'd leave me. i've tried.
maybe i'll move to portland and become an author, they all seem to live there.
maybe i should start writing books first? which came first the chicken or the egg?
either way i'm not getting arrested for screwing the hen, again.
you should start listening to more david bowie or the beatles. something to cheer you up.ReplyDelete
been there... may still be there. but dont worry it gets better.ReplyDelete
you know what helps me? i go to the bathroom, take off all my clothes, and just marvel at my gigantic penis. this usually holds me down for a couple days. if this doesnt work i cant tell you what would.
i'm all for staring at penis'... but i'm not to sure how comfortable i would be staring at your penis ray. but if that's an invitation... ohhhh wait... my own penis. still won't work.ReplyDelete
well thanks guys... but there is supposed to be some humor in the whole thing.... you can catch glimpses of it. tiny dust particle sized glimpses. glad to know people are reading this garbage.
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ive realized that in my blogs that sarcasm doesnt go over well unless you use punctuation.ReplyDelete
ie: gosh PAUL you're SOOO smart!!